Sunday, June 27
Deprived? The one thats deprived is you, you freak. *&^%$&*
Anw.. Yesterday night, I was reading the Bible. I was looking at the verses for when I have done something wrong. I was thinking about the problem with Isabelle. Since it is solved, I starting thinking, about other things. I was wondering, what is it that my heart desires. Tsk...I have sinned real bad...Felt so guilty today...When I was doing my homework...Just dont ask me what that sin is...I dont want to let anyone know...Because I know they will despise me...Sian...I dont believe I did what I did...Geez...Of all things...Must be that...Tsk tsk...Dun ask me...Dun ask me...Because I dont know anything...Man...I wish I had never come to know it...So suey...After one problem has been solved another comes...Geez...Why am I so unlucky...Alite...Never mind...
I was reading a diary. Suddenly my vision blurred. I blinked my eyes hard, and two drops of water trickled down my face. I was shocked, as I was completely unaware that I was crying. My dad came into the room, I daren't face him with my wet eyes. He talked to me, asking if I was hungry and wanted to eat. I shook my head, silently willing him away. He said more, he told me to have an early night as tomorrow was the first day of school. He asked if I enjoyed my hols, and if I did, I can look forward to the next one. I had my back to him all the while he was in my room. He made no attempt after that to move any closer to me, or to try start up somemore small talk. Guilt overtook me, as I felt I was being rude to my elder. I said "I'm sorry" silently, as if I was apologising to myself. He left the room, with, I think, a heavy heart, that his own daughter refused to have a pleasant conversation with him. I looked at my computer, and shifted my gaze to the Bible that was beside the computer. I read a few verses, on "You've done something wrong". I typed the verse Psalms 51 in my online diary. But decided not to copy here. Abit too long. Alite.. Gotta go now. Or I wont be able to wake up for school tomorrow. Ta ta.
Anw.. Yesterday night, I was reading the Bible. I was looking at the verses for when I have done something wrong. I was thinking about the problem with Isabelle. Since it is solved, I starting thinking, about other things. I was wondering, what is it that my heart desires. Tsk...I have sinned real bad...Felt so guilty today...When I was doing my homework...Just dont ask me what that sin is...I dont want to let anyone know...Because I know they will despise me...Sian...I dont believe I did what I did...Geez...Of all things...Must be that...Tsk tsk...Dun ask me...Dun ask me...Because I dont know anything...Man...I wish I had never come to know it...So suey...After one problem has been solved another comes...Geez...Why am I so unlucky...Alite...Never mind...
I was reading a diary. Suddenly my vision blurred. I blinked my eyes hard, and two drops of water trickled down my face. I was shocked, as I was completely unaware that I was crying. My dad came into the room, I daren't face him with my wet eyes. He talked to me, asking if I was hungry and wanted to eat. I shook my head, silently willing him away. He said more, he told me to have an early night as tomorrow was the first day of school. He asked if I enjoyed my hols, and if I did, I can look forward to the next one. I had my back to him all the while he was in my room. He made no attempt after that to move any closer to me, or to try start up somemore small talk. Guilt overtook me, as I felt I was being rude to my elder. I said "I'm sorry" silently, as if I was apologising to myself. He left the room, with, I think, a heavy heart, that his own daughter refused to have a pleasant conversation with him. I looked at my computer, and shifted my gaze to the Bible that was beside the computer. I read a few verses, on "You've done something wrong". I typed the verse Psalms 51 in my online diary. But decided not to copy here. Abit too long. Alite.. Gotta go now. Or I wont be able to wake up for school tomorrow. Ta ta.
michi ]|[ 20:57